miss poppy: 5 months

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this little doll baby is 5 months old! i can’t believe she is almost half a year… where has the time gone? she is just a little ball of light in our house and we can’t get enough of her bright smile and infectious laugh. here are some of the things miss poppy is doing this month:

  • she is sleeping in her crib (😦 ) she has done pretty well, but has her bad nights also.
  • she rolls around and tries to use her legs to help her get to toys
  • she reaches for things that we are holding
  • she gets startled by things and makes the funniest noise of fright
  • she thinks bastian is the funniest guy ever. he generally isn’t even doing anything, she just laughs when she sees him
  • she loves to stand, i think she is really proud of how big she seems when she’s standing
  • she likes to hold toys and wave them back and forth in front of her, it’s really cute
  • everything goes in her mouth, and everything comes out of that mouth including: drool (lots and lots of drool), spit up and more drool

poppy is very sweet and we just love her to pieces. i feel like her babyhood is just slipping away so quickly. it makes me sad, but also excited to see the little girl she will grow into.

ps. little girl is wearing a third peach co bow in her hair, isn’t it adorable🙂

miss poppy: 4 months

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miss poppy is 4 months old (last week)! she is so precious and is doing so many cute little baby things i just can’t get enough of her!

  • she rolls over both ways and rolled half way across the rug when i was in the other room, so i really can’t leave her unattended for too long haha
  • she is holding her feet and trying to eat them
  • she loves to hold toys and try to put them to her mouth, her favorite right now is sofie and this little cloth star that makes crinkle noises
  • she sits in the bumbo chair and seems to like it
  • she is a drooling machine… extreme shirt soaker
  • she loves to talk and is now making bubble noises with her drool
  • she loves bastian and thinks he’s so so funny
  • she is a smiley girl and squeals in happiness a lot
  • she is starting to notice the animals in her life (our cats and grandma’s dog)
  • she still loves to go outside and rock or just look up at the trees
  • she is so sweet in the morning when she wakes up, she stretches so big when i get her out of her swaddle and she just smiles and talks to us

everything this girl does makes me love her more and more. she just brightens up my day the moment i see her. i just want to kiss her a million times a day. her drool doesn’t even bother me haha. can we talk about how silly that there was ever a controversy over that mom kissing her child on the lips… because i can’t get enough of my kids sweet lips! her babyhood going by so fast and it makes me so sad, but i can’t wait to see what kind of girl she becomes.

poppy’s newborn photos

i can’t believe i haven’t got around to posting these photos yet! my very talented sister of taura horn photography took poppy’s newborn photos when she was only four days old (wipe tear). i love them all and we are truly running out of wall space in my house… like, i am not even kidding about that🙂 thank you taura for capturing my sweet little girlie so perfectly.

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miss poppy: 3 months

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this little nugget is three months old! she is such a happy girl and i seriously can’t get enough of her. it kind of makes my heart want to burst when i think about her. here are some of the lovely things about poppy right now:

-she likes to talk now and makes the cutest little squeaks
-she will smile at anyone and gives a little squeal to say hello
-she will nap in her crib but still sleeps in her rock n’play at night
-she is waking up once a night to eat and then right back to bed
-she doesn’t have a schedule like bastian did because she is more on the go
-she loves bath time and i had to move her baby bath tub from the counter to the big tub because she was splashing all over
-she took her first road trip to Minnesota and she did wonderfully in the car
-she doesn’t mind tummy time if she gets to be propped up on the boppy pillow
-she likes to stand up and look around and prefers to face out when held

poppy has proven to be a little doll baby. i can’t stop kissing her and trying to make her smile. i wish time would slow down, because before i know it she will be too big to sleep in my arms. ugh, i don’t even want to think about it😦

miss poppy: 2 months

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our little miss poppy is two months old today. she is still sweet as ever and we are starting to slowly see her personality come out. here are some of the few things we love about her:

-she smiles, and will smile for people other than just mom and dad!
-she has started to coo, and it’s so adorable
-she is a good sleeper and would only wake up once a night if it weren’t for her neurotic mom that wakes her twice a night to make sure she is getting plenty of milk
-she loves pat-a-cake and smiles really big every time we play
-she likes to be outside and looking up at the trees
-she also loves the warm weather (not too warm) and laying on beach towels
-she likes her baths
-she loves her pacifier and is much better about keeping it in her mouth than bastian
-again, her smiles… adorable
-we have her doc appointment next week so we don’t know how big she is, but my guess is around 10lbs.
-she likes her swing and likes to look at the mobile above her

poppy is so sweet, have i called her sweet yet? haha, seriously i can’t get enough of her. bastian is doing great these days adjusting to being a big brother. he still wants to be the “baby” every so often, which i do let him indulge in every so often. we just love the addition of poppy to our family. time is just going too fast!

miss poppy: 1 month

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little miss poppy is one month old! i feel like this past month has seriously flown by. our little girl is the sweetest and i really don’t want these days to pass by any faster. here are some adorable things about poppy:

-she is a great sleeper. a little too much at first and i always had to wake her up to eat.
-she has little bird arms and legs
-she doesn’t cry much and is such a easy good baby
-she grunts and makes the sweetest little squeaks
-bastian loves to give her kisses and hugs, although sometimes his hugs are a little tight🙂
-she has the biggest eyes and she loves to cross them a lot haha
-when she is awake she is very alert and so so sweet
-she loves to be worn which is great when i have to chase after her big brother
-she has long skinny legs and arms, she is definitely a dainty girl
-wherever she goes her brother will follow (hints the monthly photo with bastian)
-she is still wearing newborn clothes and i can’t wait for her to fit into her summer stuff
-she really is such a good baby and i am overly obsessed with her
-she has smiled for dad, of course, i think it’s the beard🙂

oh little poppy we sure do love you. we can’t wait to see what kind of a little girl you will become.

poppy’s birth story

i have been waiting to sit down and write this birth story for a while now; there are few spare minutes i have in a day now🙂 our sweet poppy has arrived and we are so in love with her. i literally can’t not stop kissing her lips. the adjustment of 1-2 kids has not been too bad. there is a lot more timing that has to go on, but overall we are surviving and taking it day by day!

the morning of bastian’s birthday i woke up to some light contractions around 2am. panic set in; my fear of having kids with the same birthday might be a reality. i was able to go back to sleep and would wake up to more contractions throughout the early morning, so i wasn’t positive that labor was actually taking place. then around 6am i felt a weird sensation down there and went to the bathroom to see i lost my mucus plug (i hate that word…). well, i thought to myself, this is it!

i was so excited to finally meet our daughter but so sad that bastian may not have the third birthday i was hoping for. excitement and sadness consumed me. i wanted to at least make bastian’s birthday feel special, so i went downstairs and started decorating the house with streamers and presents. i knew that if we could just get a birthday breakfast in of mickey mouse chocolate chip pancakes and present opening done before things got tough, it could be somewhat of a birthday for bastian.

i went upstairs to tell brian the news, and brian was somewhat taken back but not overly shocked. around 7:15 we heard the birthday boy awake in his bed and went in to tell him happy birthday. he was so excited, i can still see his face when he asked if his friends were here yet and looked out the window. at that moment, my heart broke and i could have just cried right there. i knew we had to try to give him a real birthday party. we went downstairs and started cooking breakfast. my contractions were mild and about 15 min. apart so i made the decision to move bastian’s birthday party up to 11am. we called our family and told them the news. everyone was pretty excited and thought it would be extra convenient for them to have two birthdays knocked out in one party haha. brian and i both had our moments of tears filling our eyes knowing that our sweet boy was soon going to be a big brother and no longer the only child.

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we had our family over and luckily my mother-in-law and mom brought all the food because otherwise it would have been cheese and crackers haha! bastian had a ton of fun and got tons of great gifts and attention. my contractions were mild still and only 15 minutes apart, so i was able to be present at his party. at about 2pm i started getting tired so i snuck upstairs to take a little nap. i managed to get about 20 minutes of sleep before i woke up to my sweet birthday boy not be such a sweet sleeper. i went into his room to settle him down and read him a book.

once he was down, i went downstairs and everyone had left. i was a little upset that things weren’t going any quicker at that point. with bastian’s birth, things were intense right from the get go, and this labor had dragged on all day. i started to wonder if this baby really was coming today. i had wrapped my mind around the idea that they were sharing birthdays and now who knew! i did know that poppy was sunny side up, and my guess was that was why the labor was not progressing. i texted my doula at 3pm to ask what she thought i should do. she told me to try two exercises that might help the baby flip for the next hour and then let her know how it was going. the first exercise was to lay sideways on the edge of a bed and take your top leg hanging off. the contractions started to progress to 9-12 mins. apart. then all of a sudden i felt a “clunk” in my belly. i wasn’t sure if i imagined it or if maybe that was the baby flipping.

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after about 30 min of lying like that i started in on the next exercise; walking the curb. my mom stayed inside while bastian slept and brian and i walked the curb of our street. i am sure the neighbors thought we were crazy! haha, good thing we all like each other! things really started to progress. with these contractions i had to really breathe through. i leaned against brian and felt them coming on quicker, about every 4 mins. or so. i totally felt in control and was geared up for the challenge of giving birth. i texted my doula at 4pm and told her things were progressing. she told me to go inside, lay down and see if the contractions would continue to come. once i laid down on the couch, things really picked up. i went into my zone and i barely knew what’s going on around me. i just focused on the next contraction and resting with my eyes closed in between each contraction. i could sense my mom and brian starting to worry that things were heating up! haha. i texted the doula around 4:30pm that she needed to come over.

i was now really making some noise but again, totally felt in control. i don’t think i moved for the next 30 mins. haha. around 5pm the doula arrived and bastian had woken up from his nap. he was really terrified of the noises i was making and didn’t want to come too close, poor guy haha. my mother-in-law took bastian and my doula sat next to me, comforting me and assessing the situation. brian was running around the house packing the car and trying to keep himself busy. again, my mom was in panic mode that we needed to go to the hospital. i stayed in my zone, not letting anyone bother me. when i get to a certain point during labor, i am not able to talk or make decisions. so after an intense contraction that brought sweat to my face, kelly my doula, said it was time to head to the hospital. it was 5:20 when we started making our way to the car. now mind you, when you are in active labor, you can’t just jump up off the couch and walk to the car. you have to time them with your contractions, and then the second you move another contraction comes on. so, slowly we made our way to the car.

kelly sat in the back seat with me and thank god she did! the drive was around 20 mins. to get to the hospital. i wasn’t really sure how far along i was in the labor process but i knew that once i got to the hospital i wanted to be in the tub. i told brian and kelly that i hope this baby doesn’t take too long to come out! well, little did i know…

we pull up to the hospital and we start slowly making our way inside around 5:45pm. in the lobby i had a big contraction, like one on top of the other. i stayed so calm, i kind of surprised myself with how well i was handling it! maybe i wasn’t that far along i thought. we made our way to the elevator and then the labor and delivery floor. the gal at the front desk told brian he needed to fill out some paper work and bam! i had a real big contraction leaning up against the wall and i shouted that i was going to go to the bathroom in my pants. my doula was like, that’s the baby! haha. i think every nurse on the floor must have heard that last contraction because the doors opened and they all ushered me into my room. i was waddling down the hall with my hands “holding in” what i thought was a number 2. the second i got into the room i opened the bathroom door, pulled down my pants and WHOOSH my water broke.

i had a big contraction and pushed really hard (i had no control over that push) and thank god there was a nurse in there because she saw poppy’s head and sternly told me i was not having my baby in the bathroom. she guided me over to the bed and told me i had to breathe through the next few contractions before the doctor came in. ahhh, please don’t make me hold off pushing! well luckily the doctor was right there. she gloved up and two pushes later, at 5:52pm our sweet poppy was born. she was born a couple minutes before we were even checked into the hospital🙂

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seeing her for the first time was amazing. she was so sweet, i was instantly so in love with her. everything about her was perfect and i was in motherly bliss. brian had to sit down because he thought he might pass out because of how fast everything went. we stared at our baby for the next hour, told the nurses how sorry we were that we didn’t come sooner! i swore that i had no idea i was that far along. kelly told me that she thinks i must have gone through transition at home. well, i certainly didn’t have a clue that things would go that fast. about 10 mins. after arriving at the hospital we had poppy. the nurses i think liked the excitement🙂

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poppy’s birth is something i will never forget. i wouldn’t change a thing about it. she is so perfect and everyone is doing pretty well adjusting to life as a family of four. i can’t even tell you how much i love this little girl. she is such a good little baby and i can’t stop kissing her sweet lips. poppy, you are my perfect little girl and i love you more than you know!

week by week: 38

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two weeks left… well until i am full term! i feel like this pregnancy has gone so fast and although i am so excited to meet our little girl, i am also in no hurry. i remember being much more anxious with bastian at this point than i feel with this pregnancy. the one thing that is making me slightly ready for her to come out is that i am getting uncomfortable. by the end of the day i just ache. my back and pelvis are hitting their limit. it’s like the second i hit 38 weeks, i just hurt. i have also been staying up too late lately and so each night when i am getting into bed i tell myself, please don’t go into labor tonight, i just need a little more sleep🙂 i need to start going to bed earlier so if i go into labor in the middle of the night, like i did with bastian, i can at least get a couple of hours of sleep to get me through.

brian and i went on what my guess is our last date night before baby comes. we went and saw a movie and then out to dinner. it was nice to have some time to ourselves. i could barely sit still during the movie because my hips and tailbone were so sore. i had to change positions every 10 minutes.

 

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bastian i think is ready to meet his sister too. he has been extra sweet to her; asking to hug her and give her kisses. he thinks she is going to be “berry little” when she comes out and he is going to hold her and kiss her. oh sweet boy, i hope you love your sister as much as we hope! his little world is about to change forever. the way i look at it though, we are giving him the best, life long gift you could give someone, the gift of a sibling. someone that will be in their lives forever. when you add a child to your family, you are adding more love and support for everyone. both brian and my siblings are our whole support system and without them, life wouldn’t be as interesting🙂

so bastian, although you may not like your sister all the time, you will forever love her and i know you two will take care of each other long after your dad and me are gone.

week by week: 37

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one week closer to meeting our little girl! i surprisingly haven’t had much back pain like i did with bastian. i sleep great which is just going to make it harder in a few weeks to have it taken away. at our appointment this week baby’s heartbeat was nice and strong and she was moving around like a crazy girl. i am now starting to gear myself up for labor again by remembering how amazing it is to hold that baby for the first time. staying positive is the best thing for me and i have to remind myself what the prize is at the end of that marathon.

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i got my new breast pump in the mail and i am really excited about it! i used an old medela with bastian and i thought it was time to upgrade, so i decided to go with the spectra s1 model. i have heard nothing but amazing things about it and i am weirdly excited to try it… i say this now, but to all the moms who have to pump out there know… there is nothing fun about pumping haha! oh but this pump is supposed to be very quiet! so there won’t be any more “whaa whaa whaa” of the noisy medela. i will let you know what i think of it. hopefully i will just have gallons of extra milk😉

week by week: 36

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i am now in the home stretch, one month away from meeting baby van bloom. these past weeks have been good, i am sleeping great and still feeling pretty good! this week at the doctor we had to do fetal monitoring for 20 minutes due to the fact that i have gestational diabetes. it’s kind of fun because you get to hear her little heart beat for 20 minutes. it was cute, every time she made a big movement, her heart rate would go up a little bit. it was like getting a glimpse of what really is going on in my belly.

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i am realizing that this baby will be here really soon and i wondering if i am ready. i have everything you need for a baby, but am i mentally ready to be in labor again? mentally ready to mother two children? with bastian, i did so much preparation with the labor process and so i felt really ready. this time around i haven’t, so i think i need to go back and read some of my books to get myself back in the game🙂 all and all, i know i will survive both labor and the newborn phase haha, so that’s all that matters. i think i am most excited to see her sweet face and kiss her. the idea of having a daughter is so fun to me and i can’t wait to get to know her.

ps. i had to include this sweet photo of bastian with me in my weekly pictures. he is getting really excited for baby applesauce too!

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